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Disciplined Demon
Today is a day of wanting. Today is a day of wanting and not getting. Today is a day to be devoted to heartache and horniness. I'll go to the gym, work out, drink coffee, read a book. I will think about red, about Aisho-san. I will think about it and not be moved to silliness over it. I won't do anything stupid. I won't do anything at all. I will be the the unwilling agent of unanswered prayers. I am The Disciplined Demon today. I sound angst-ier than I truly am. This is only one part of my existence. Don't make the mistake, in other words, of thinking this a permanent state of being. Or even a majority rules state of being. I give voice to it all.
Magdalene cried on my couch yesterday out of frustration and, I think, jealousy over my thinking Mel beautiful. Magdalene said, "Now I know what Matthew must've felt like." I asked her what she meant. She said, "He must have been so confused."
More lies:
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