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The Demon Who Is Punished By Her Sins and Not For Her Sins
You�re probably here to see the demons, in which case you�re going to have to wade through a bit of shit first. Shit is a major demon export product�but at least they�re self-feeding. If you didn�t bring your wading boots, you might want to go ahead and click up there on �older lies� and then begin with �The Tell-All Demon.� .............................................................................. Last night, I had an attack of conscience that led me to almost yank the Demon Chronicles from my diary. Using full names isn't fair, I thought. Only presenting one side of the story is unfair, I thought. Editing in all those things that one thinks of to say later that makes one sound all the more clever in relation to the other demons isn't fair, I thought. Potentially punishing people for past mistakes isn't fair, I thought. I really did think these things. I even tried the Sublingua 2003 mantra: "I'm a good person. I'm a good person. I'm a good person." The Demon Who Always Does the Right Thing and I went to soak and talk about various things including the latest demons. I told her my dilemma. And she thought it might be a good idea to yank Demon Mine. (When the Demon Who Always Does the Right Thing speaks usually I hear and I obey because she is one of the healthiest demons I know.) Luckily, my hard drive took a nose-dive last night and I couldn't access the internet without going to the university's all-night computer pod. And I didn't want to do that because I have found that I'm often not the only demon wandering the campus late at night. And, sadly, I'm never the most frightening of said demons. So I stayed home, safe in my apartment, wrangling the demons, not yanking Demon Mine. So I woke up this morning with the voice of Sublingua 2000 in my head. She reminded me that Attacks of Conscience is something like number one on the top-ten list of the most effective demon defenses against demon wranglers. So fuck it. The diary stays the way it is. I don't edit my life for my own mother, so why would I edit it for any other demon? <<<
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