|The heart with a mind of its own.(Be present.)||The mind with a heart of its own.(It's past.)||The dream that is your waking life.(Go there now.)|
Strange and wonderful dream last night about being dressed up as an old bag lady, moaning and wailing on stage to a script that I held in my hand, then, having gotten a round of applause and having taken a bow, running offstage and through a door. I was outside, confronted by a set of rickety steps which I went down. I started running and, looking back, saw that I had left a trailer.
In the next part of the dream, I was standing in line to get into a huge wedding. I was wearing a light-colored strapless dress with a huge net skirt. I recieved a packet and ribbon (almost as though I were going to a conference) and went inside. There were quite a few people inside, though the room was not crowded by any measure. I chose a large round table (knowing that my friends were coming to join me later) and set my things down. I went to the buffet line and picked up a plate and looked over the choices. There was a salad bar which was filled with all that stuff that the diet books tell you to avoid (marinated mushrooms, macaroni salad) and I wasn't even tempted. I went to a second line where men were standing behind huge slabs of roasted meat. I asked one for a tiny slice of beef, about three ounces, and he cut off one that was slightly heavier, but I took it anyway and went to sit down at the table. I was alone, still, but not worried. I decided to read the information in my packet while I ate, and as I reached for it, a woman came over and started talking to me about bottled water and how certain unscrupulous companies were refilling their bottles from the tap.
I woke up then, having to pee, but knowing that if I wanted to, I could easily return to the dream. I chose not to return but to remember.
I woke up already having halfway interpreted the dream as one which augered success at my new venture to end my years of scripted misery, however accomplished I have been at it, and make a new life for myself, even if it means that I'll be alone in doing so.